well, today was a good day. had a baby shower for a girl i've grown up with. having a baby girl in the end of feb. well as i was shopping for her shower gifts i realized finally that we aren't children anymore. her name will be forever changing, she will be called mommy from now on. scary thought. now all my other "friends" are moms, but it hit me differently with court. she was my partner in crime. my sister. and her life was forever changing soon. i started to think about all the memories we have made in the past 22 years. and i realized that they are things i never think about. how many moments in your life have turned into lifelong memories? do you strive to make a memory? or do u go through life just waiting for something to happen? not trying to make the best of things. in life we generally tend to think of the bad and never the good. now in my life i realize that i harpe on the bad, but shopping for her baby girl's clothing and toys...i remembered when we played barbies at 5 years old in her grandmoms basement, and when we would play picnic time under the dining room table eating cream cheese and crackers. things that while we were growing up we also promised that we would have babies at the same time so they could grow up like we did, and we would have them do the same things, picnic time, and hand down our hand made barbie doll houses, we promised we'd live across the street from eachother when we did have children, so there was a promise to them that they would be best friends too. realizing now that those things aren't going to happen, but that doesnt mean we cant share the stories and experiences with our children. it doesnt mean we cut those moments out of our lives, and have them never thought about again. i think thats the best part of being young and confused...the moment when you realize that if you just take the time to see it all...it all isnt so confusing anymore. things end up working out the way they should in the end. i learned another lesson this weekend...to never let life make you overwhelmed. once you go to sleep that day ends...and you will never get it back...so make the best of everyday. and never forget. because you wouldn't want to never remember a day that could be your best one. i became a new person this weekend. in trusting that our childhood days are over...but we have so many more moments ahead to turn into lifelong memories to share with our children one day. and that ive never been more proud to call her a friend.