You are 30! Who wants you! Your too old! You don't have your stuff together! You ride Marta! You aren't pretty enough! They probably think you're one of Pastor's "Special" members! People don't like you!
Those are the negative thoughts that parade my mind every day! These negative contradictions come at me trying to cause me to move in a direction away from the will of God for me!
If I did not know the will of God for my life, I would be soo ungrateful and wanting to see death! I thank God that he is greater in me than he that's in the world! That when those negative thoughts arise, I hear him say I love you rest in me! Be still! Don't be moved! Remain steadfast! You will see the salvation of the Lord! With this revelation, can only make me want to be obedient to His will for me which is found in 1 Thess 5:16-18 to thank God in everything no matter what the circumstance be, Be thankful and give thanks! It also makes me want to be obedient to 1 John 2:15-17 which tells us do not love the world, if you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you! Loving the Father and being thankful to Him will bring me riches, honor and long life so I found in Proverbs 22:4. I want the love of the father in me and I want to bear fruit so I decided to be thankful and give thanks no matter what!
All this brought me to what Jesus said, Love the Lord with all you heart, all your soul, and all your mind. Love your neighbor as yourself! Matt 22:37-39

Be mindful of this: But those who obey God's word truly show how completely they love Him!1 John 2:5.
Obedience gives birth to the Blessing!