Beginning anywhere

I've been struggling with self-acceptance for as long as I can remember. It's like a toxic yet familiar friend and I'm finally cutting ties and being more conscious and intentional in filling my life with what I DO want rather than don't want. I have so much privilege. And I am used to feeling so helpless, so in my head, so unskilled, so passive, so fearful. It has become an excuse, holding myself back. What I want is to feel helpful, active, contributing, and part of the process, feeling the fear and doing it anyway.

Compassion, which includes with self-compassion, is a relatively new idea for me. I want to put my fragmented self back together and feel that compassion is key to this. Then I will have more to give. I am going on faith that by asking, by starting, there will be answers revealed, and the steps will get easier with time. It's a first step and it feels like a comfort and relief to be taking it.

It is inspiring to find this kind of community. I am grateful.